Sunday, February 8, 2015

spelling test

I learned shoes when I was 1 1/2 and daddy when I was 1 3/4 and he’ll never let it go that he came second.

I learned pencils and take home reading and homework when kindergarten started and snack-time and recess and pack up when kindergarten ended

The word hope came when the Easter Bunny still came when my parents were out of town
Because that meant he was real and I wasn't quite done being a kid

Self-conscious when I started at a school with more gossip than monkey bars
Confused when sticks and stones started sounding like cotton compared to the words you were throwing around

Quiet when words meant tears
Happy when 2nd period meant talking to you

Worry when I realized my parents were fighting over things bigger than bills
Heartache when I learned the girl next to me wasn’t just skipping meals


And again 

when suicide started to feel familiar
And just last winter I learned the word inadequate and how badly I wanted you to feel otherwise

And still
after years and years of words and lists and wrongs and rights







I can’t seem to find a way to fill the screaming silence of these empty nights.

F. Sharpe

6 comments:

  1. ok what??? my eyes are watery and my heart is skipping beats and i keep reading this because it's incredible

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  2. WOAH WOAH WOAH I'm feeling things...

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  3. This is all kinds of unique. You could tell from the opening line. Something different. Yet familiar and what we wanted to read.

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  4. The opening was def. The best part. My first word was apple like wtf?????? Anyways I really liked this. (As usual)

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  5. "Worry when I realized my parents were fighting over things bigger than bills
    Heartache when I learned the girl next to me wasn’t just skipping meals"
    #stolen
    You're making my heart do more than just beat and
    These are more than words on a blog.
    Thank you.

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