I remember my first crush, Nolan.
I remember bus rides and empty seats everywhere
But not row three.
Row three was for him and me.
I remember that watermelon paper we made on my first day of first grade.
I remember how cool I thought it was that we were using actual seeds.
I remember the fourth new school in five years.
I remember when kids hoped our teacher would pick them to be my buddy while I was adjusting to the school
I remember when I finally learned what the word adjusting meant.
I remember Facebook chatting him “oh hey didn't see you there”
I remember thinking that was smooth
I remember meeting the girl who shared my last name
I remember knowing immediately that I should feel grateful to know Whit
I remember telling my mom my stomach hurt every day for a week to explain why I cried at recess
I remember praying I’d make a friend in Mr. Wimmer’s class
I remember meeting Natty the next day
I remember vowing I’d never wear makeup
I remember the first time I tried clam chowder.
I remember the first time I cried in public. She just sipped her sprite and laughed.
I remember telling my mom I hated her.
I remember it was because she wouldn't let me get a club penguin membership
I remember graduating from sixth grade and crying because I wasn't quite ready to have grown up responsibilities
I remember crying yesterday because I’m not quite ready to have grown up responsibilities
I remember when he told me I wasn't good enough to go anywhere in soccer.
I remember when she told me I understood the game so well that I could play at any college I wanted.
I remember laughing.
I remember thinking that I wasn't going to meet anyone worth dating in high school
I remember her pointing you out to me in US history.
I remember that football game.
I remember feeling grateful that my ride showed up last
I remember when remembering made me smile
I remember when the future was a little less tear soaked.
I remember when tomorrows included my mom and you and woods landing court and one more season
I remember when chalk did more and decisions did less.